This morning, Kelly said to me, “My former colleague, Ala, always pays attention to some trifles and delves on some insignificant problems in her work. As a result, her colleagues are all afraid of partnering with her. Owing to this, she’s very upset and asked me how to resolve this problem. I don’t know how to solve it. Do you have any good solutions to it?”
Hearing Kelly’s question, my heart sank. I thought: How could Ala’s behavior be so similar to mine? I also always delve into some little things in my work. At the moment, there came to my mind a scene of yesterday: My colleague of the branch office, Viki, sent me three optimized titles of paperwork to check. I saw that these optimized titles lacked the numbers and were only followed by double quotation marks replacing the original titles. I felt they didn’t look good. So I spoke loud to Kelly who sat opposite to me, “Viki is so perfunctory about doing things. You see, she didn’t write the numbers before the optimized titles, but only used the double quotation marks to replace the original titles. This doesn’t look good at all. She’s so perfunctory.”
As soon as my voice subsided, the other colleagues in our office laughed and Baky said, “Cindy, you really delve so much.” Hearing what she said, I said seriously, “I have to delve and be careful with these things. Viki writing like this is irresponsible and it doesn’t look good at all. I have to help her make up the rest to let her see how to write beautifully.” Then, I started to add the numbers 1, 2, 3, and the original titles. Only after doing this was I in the mood to see whether these optimized titles were suitable. As I read them, I thought: Viki, your attitude to work is really bad. You’ve been like this many times. You see, my attitude is so earnest. I don’t mess around like you.
When I think of this now, I realized in doing this, I wasn’t earnest about and careful with my work but focused on some trifles. In fact, those optimized titles were permissible without the numbers and original titles, for this didn’t involve any matters of principle. Viki told me that the titles had been written before, so she would not write them one by one when she wrote optimized titles. Moreover, there were only three titles. Even though they weren’t added the numbers, we all knew how many titles there were. Thus she could save some time to do other things. However, I couldn’t accept this in my heart, and always thought we should write all the items so it would look nicer. Therefore, many times, seeing Viki wrote the optimized titles in this way, I would complain she was lazy and not serious about her work, and then I made up the rest of her work angrily.
At this point, I thought of a word in the Bible, “Proud and haughty scorner is his name, who deals in proud wrath” (Proverbs 21:24). The word really hit my vital spots and made me feel shameful. I was serious about the little things, found fault with my colleague, and persisted in changing her paperwork. What’s more, due to this, I thought I was serious and earnest about my work, and congratulated myself. Was I not of arrogance?
Thinking back, I always delved into some insignificant things and picked out my colleagues’ mistakes. For example, when my colleagues didn’t adjust the format of their documents, I would blame them; when I found their paperwork did not agree in typeface, I also found fault with them; with regard to a word in paperwork that we could either change or not change, I would change it. … I always focused on the smallest details, and so my colleagues were speechless and a little afraid of me. In fact, I sometimes pondered these small things that I paid attention to weren’t important. But I wanted to find these problems and correct them according to my will. Now, I understood this was because I was too arrogant. Then, I prayed to God in my heart, “Oh, God! I’m no longer willing to be so arrogant or delve into those trifles. Please guide me to find the path to practice, let go of myself and recover the normal relationship with my colleagues.”
After praying, I thought: The Lord Jesus came from heaven to earth to redeem man. He humbly hid Himself, sitting amongst sinners. He lived with man, full of mercy and love, and forbearance and patience for man. He never condemned people according to their transgressions. God’s tolerance is boundless, full of love for us humans. I am a person corrupted by Satan, covered in filth. I am a sinner before God and there is nothing to be arrogant about. I should follow the example of the Lord to become a humble person and live out His love. I remembered the word said by Brother Peter, “Finally, be you all of one mind, having compassion one of another, love as brothers, be pitiful, be courteous” (1 Peter 3:8). Right. When we partnered with others, we should be of one heart and mind, understand, love and respect each other. We shouldn’t pick out others’ insignificant faults to belittle them nor make demands of others according to our own preferences, much less should we boast about and show off ourselves. This is what I should practice. If Viki wrote the titles like this the next time, I definitely must respect her way of doing this and make an apology to her.
After I had some knowledge, my heart was much lighter. I thought of the word in the Bible, “All things work together for good to them that love God” (Romans 8:28). Then I thanked God for Him arranging this environment. Through Kelly stating Ala’s problem, I reflected on my own problem. This was the path to resolve my own arrogance and recover the normal relationship with others. Later on, I allowed Kelly to read this article, and hoped my experience could help her colleague, Ala.